Horse Sympathy For Some Reason, I Can't Help But Think "I Want A Horse, I Want A Horse" And I Have A Weird Feeling In My Gut?

For some reason, I can't help but think "I want a horse, I want a horse" and I have a weird feeling in my gut? - horse sympathy

So ... I'm 13 and have my own horse wanted for 10 years. I took riding lessons for 5 years and jump 3 ', and the third in my first exhibition, which was a small study, the inexperienced beginner division. I've always wanted a horse, but for some reason, right now, I can not stop thinking about. It may be because I am the only neighbors of my friends 4, at least, am not a horse. I praise and a half, but had to stop for the money, but I ride this horse again, and it is the only horse that I always wanted. I always take my classes, and the owner, I can go on Sunday. I miss him really bad, and I will sell the sole owner. I want to really really bad, and I can not stop thinking about it now. I hate it and I feel terrible, because I doubt he will ever have the money to have a horse, because my mother has to find a job for me to have a horse, and the economy as it is I do not think it will never happen, and every year, if my parents what I want for my birthday or Christmas, ask that I disI want a horse. It is as if suddenly came to me yesterday that not a horse, and I traveled for more than two of my friends who have horses. Help! I'm not asking for sympathy, just advice!